You think many from growing up when you were told at every turn, typically after questioning why you felt the same way about your Great Aunt Gertie as you did your favorite stuffed animal? Or why mommy and daddy kissed but you weren’t supposed to kiss your brother/sister/cousin/insert relative here like that because it was love yes, but different and we don’t kiss our relatives like we saw mommy and daddy kiss each other.
Well I love them why not. ? Not that it occurred to me to ever kiss anyone of the above like that because I didn’t know mom and dad kissed with more than their lips for
- 1. a very long time as in older and
- ewwww. how does that say I love you? from a child’s view.
This has been bothering me greatly of late. Because I think it’s baloney. Bullshit, hooeyt , some crap told to us to make sure we showed love appropriately and did not leave out anyone from having love of some sort or other. Everyone is loved by someone they don’t have to be loved by everyone even a little.
I have seriously been stuck in a great vortex of wanting to believe life is all that i thought when i trusted everything and too many people.. to feeling duped, disappointed, sometimes lost in the senseless ness of trying to figure out who they really are. You know like the THEY that say…. it is what it isn’t but we should believe because they say it is so. TheY
Where are they anyways ? Is it like the great curtain of Oz?
Or more maddening if you think too long.. the Matrix? We could be in the Matrix you know. It’s a crapshoot and I am gong to let that one lie a while because it could get us lost and i have a point I want to make,
Its important and I think we have been misled. In oh so many ways but today, its love that bothers me. It always has but I repeated what I was told, like we all did,
“there are different kinds of love”
But they feel the same to me. I love you means I love you. It’s that simple to me. Why do I have to explain I love you like a sister or brother or mom or dad. like my child.. my dog, George.. love is love is Love.
The difference is how we express it and are taught what is the right way and the wrong way. according to them. ya know the THEY
Its still love.
Let’s for the sake of keeping it nice not speak of and know pediphiles are not included in this discussion because if i do not disclude them it will be taken wrong. I do not condone nor have I ever thought touching a child as if they were adult is acceptable. Ever. It’s not love its sexual and sex and love are different.
But because of the way I am going to put this out there someone will think i am saying its ok and i am nipping that one in the bud..or kicking you in the butt if you really believe after reading my blog for so long or even just today, i would at all stick up for a pedophile. I’ll get more into it later but for now -
we are speaking of adults and relatives and typical love attraction and straight up doinking, Sorry if that word bothers you, I like it, the way it rolls off the tongue. and the look of surprise i get too when I say it.
Anyways, love feels the same as love feels.
I cant kinda love you or sorta a little. I love you or I don’t. it is or it isn;t and it usually happens pretty quick. I can I think honestly say.. love has never grown on me. It has deepened grown and changed but it started out love. I have put a lot of thought into it. Really.
Don;t you wonder where I have been?
Never mind. I know the answer.
It’s ok really cause i have been all over the place. I am mad as hell at them.. but they wont win.
Love is the answer and the key.
we are taught at a young age, proper ways to express love, taught its ok to tell someone
i love you but not like that.
wow that feels better than I don;t love you? Show of hands please? yea it still feels like your mom said you could keep your dead goldfish and pretend he is still swimming happily cause you loved him so much.
Then we are taught about sex and that is what mucks the whole frigging thing right the heck up.
I am trying to retrain from f bombing though i feel strongly, I am saving it for some other rage or rant,
or happy bit of conversation about the bullshit we got shoved down our throats for whose benefit? Them? The mysterious They.
While I agree and believe that two people who love each other very much can show their love through ..doinking. Love is not required for the act to be committed and that is where we are all getting messed up with what is right not right and all the different kinds of love there are that boil down to really just love. Incsidentally for arguments sake I think thats where pedophiles get messed up too. they equate sex and love.. im not an expert nor defending just saying…making sex about love fucked up a lot of people .. i mean confused.
Loving another that you are attracted to naturally leads to thoughts of physically expressing that feeling. I think.
We are, some of us huggy touchy feely kissy a little sometimes over the top, by i dunno whose standards. I would guess the person you are expressing love too sometimes.
Men love men but there is a limit. Like brothers. And you can smack their ass on the football field. But a man who openly proclaims his love and that love includes physical attraction.. oh hell no? Why not? It’s not natural you say? Really? Why cause they said?
Women the same we can love each other but to want a love that is deeper like that of the man and woman who express their love that
way.. or we just think a chick is hot and want to see what its like, more common in women than men, at least openly expressed.. it’s not natural?
Oh but its more accepted then men … why? Does anyone know? Or have the right to say they do?
History tells a different story ya know. No the naysayers can not point and say they were heathens, uneducated degenerates.
Greeks, Romans, civilized nations… but what did they know, we know better. Or they say we do.
Whatever. Love is love.
What made me think like this was the capacity i have to love one person the same as the next.. you think it’s not possible? It is.
I love someone for who they are..not what body or life they are in.. and it confused me for a while but it makes sense. I am capable of feeling emotion from one extreme to another and loving with great capacity.. I can love who and how and when I feel like it. I’m already not on the; we feell comfortable with you around list...ask if i care what you think about feeling love for someone society says i shouldn’t feel.
Not you as in all you.
You the they – figure who they are.
Love is love, the only thing within it is depth of connection. Sex is just added to make it shameful to want to have sex at all. Again I blame the Catholic Church and I have yet to be stricken down for it. So there. Sorry if you are Catholic I mean no offense to you. It happened a very long time ago.
My little aha moment wasnt some big coming out. It’s just a thought. I am still who i am and feel the way i do. I just know I am capable of love some people will never understand. Just love like it is. Not this kind or that right or wrong. I love and I am. Here’s another secret I know about what they say..
You can;t fix me. Because I am not broke.
More on that next time.
I love you. Except the guy who tortured me in grade school then wanted to sleep with me in college. I don’t love you much at all.
Just saying. besides him I’ll kiss every last one of you to prove it.
Let Them just try and stop me.
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