Gazing at the Moon

English: Lunar libration. see below for more d...

I can not imagine a night,
to look upon the moon
as it gazes over the land
That I will have to fight
And I fear it comes too soon
The joy that creeps in my heart
at the magnificent site
For no more will you be
anywhere to gaze upon
The moon I am blessed to see
No more on this path
will you walk with me

Will I feel your spirit move me

English: Two candles in love. The flame is inv...
English: Two candles in love. The flame is inverted heart shape. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

As I stand in the moonbeams glow
Will you come to watch over me
Will you promise to let me know?

I want you should stay with me
Wont keep you long my love
Just brush against my lips
Take my hand, I won’t move,

Whisper your name silently
Reveal to me you’re there

and sit and watch the moon
as the  breeze upon my hair

I don’t want you to die
All things must  but still
You gave up so easy
You just lost your  your way and will

I would have fought to save you
enticed you with stories of years we could share
would be worth the cost of battle
its sucks, it isn’t fair

You used to say God
brought me with love to you
should you be worried
God won’t like what you chose to do?

Will you hover near and watch
As I lay my head to sleep
Will you be the one who is charged
My tired soul to keep?

Immaculate Heart of Mary

I should bid you welcome?
What else could I do?
I will feel you I know it
There are only a precious few

Who can say they loved true
were loved truly in their life
some would do what you did
most wouldn’t dare to trifle

With what was written in the stars
clearly meant to be
you were not meant to have this fate
nor place it upon me

For I am a gift, So too were you
together always destined
to be bound as one
who were you to question

you drew to your misfortune
more than you shouldburning heart
bad begets more bad
good is always good

I gave my love, my loyalty
and for my heart kept safe
Once again I pay for you
Aimless lonely waif

The price of waiting on your pain
for relief you tried to find
You think I would see coming again
Is getting left behind

Still empty as your smile
your promise of return
Made vacant by substance
for which you constantly burn

I wonder if you are afraid to go
Will my heart whisper me when
You go on to see your God and
Will you come to me then

Finally stay til my time
together always as planned
Carry me through to be with you
Til eternity comes to its end

How am I to take that
knowing you will then stay
next to me forever
after the dying day

why did you let it in
why will you not fight
why won’t you even try
why did you lose sight

Of the mighty force you were
the gypsy who longed to roam
the love we had together
your need to get back home

When your soul is finally released

free from pain and fear
Then will you have time for me
Will you promise to stay near

So that I wont sit in the night and long for you
with heart in broken ruin
laid waste by regret and choices you made
as I gaze upon the moon.

©LizzieC

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12 thoughts on “Gazing at the Moon

    1. thanks..
      it was hard to write but it helped a little –
      it did not diminish the enormity of the way I feel.. and I am not sure what to do with it. My mom used to sing a song about the moon and I sing it to my kids and they all know it by heart…
      “I see the moon, the moon sees me, the moon sees the one I want to see, god bless the moon and god bless me, god bless the one I want to see” sometimes there is immense comfort in looking at the moon and knowing someone far away but still loved is also seeing the moon.. its a connection. painful to know it will be gone.

  1. My momma texted me the moon the other night to tell me we were both seeing the same one. I know of what you write, and it breaks my heart to read it. I would love to tell you there is magic to fix it. Hearts broken by others’ badness hurt even more than the ones we shatter all by our lonesome.

    Know I love you and I am here. ❤ xxx

  2. Wow, this one took my breath away Lizzie. Beautiful and heart wrenching at the same time. I’m sure it was a difficult, but cathartic, piece to write. ((Hugs))

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