help me get through it, Mid-Afternoon Mental Moment

Today’s Mental Moment…  well

I really enjoy bringing these mental moments to you all.  I try to make them funny, enlightening, mental…   I do it all for you. Really.

The Fool on the Hill - The Beatles

The Fool on the Hill - The Beatles (Photo credit: Gunnsi)

Today I need to do a mental moment for me….if that’s ok.

I have had the moment, just a moment ago.  And I don’t want to be alone in this moment.  I need, today to lean on you.

There are those of you who will understand the significance and those that might not.

It’s a moment …  of letting go.  I found this song a while ago.  I don;t want to go into why all of a sudden it was as if… it came out of my head.

But today, it went from my heart…  to where it needed to be heard, to finally free me of the hurting and the ….  hurting.

I have come so far and have so much ahead of me, but have lost so much too.

It still hurts.

I didn’t know what else to do.   And I didn’t want to be in this moment alone because …  Just because.

Thanks …  for being here for me.

For sharing this very deeply mental moment of mine…

It wont always be this bad, and tomorrow is a new day.

To your Mental State, whatever it may be…

Lizzie Cracked…  not broken,  and thanks to you, never alone.

Have a Wonderful Weekend, our regular Mental Moment programming will return Monday…

 

17 responses to “help me get through it, Mid-Afternoon Mental Moment

  1. Don’t know if the hurt goes away completely. It does get easier. And letting it go helps.
    Being freed from it is a wonderful thing.
    And we’re all just a keystroke away.

    Thank you for sharing.
    And rock on, lizziec.

    • im gonna just lay here on the floor for awhile.. say goodbye to what was what in my heart i knew anyways…. outloud I just did huh…it was just hard…
      move on to what can be.. and be ok… thanks for being here

    • it’s really a beautiful song..about strength.. it was the only way I knew how to say what needed to be said… that;s why it hurts.. closing doors..but others are opening..

  2. You are never alone Lizzie. I need you too. Sometimes it is easier to look outside and see happiness than it is to look inside. I know that sometimes I get scared to really look inside my own head and heart because so much damage has been done. I’m afraid that if I’m forced to really see all that pain and loss, and the bad, not sad stuff; the pieces of myself that are still hanging on would just shatter, and the brokenness would be beyond repair. I don’t know if that made any sense, just from one cracked soul to another, we will be okay.

  3. Good thing I brought some bear claws today! Whew! Hurt is an amazing feeling. It has the ability to cripple, grow, hide, morph, and change. But, it never really goes away. I do hope for you that now that you have faced it, you can help change it. Even if you just make it into a mosaic to throw against a wall to watch shatter… Whatever works ya know. So, yeah…. Bear claw?

  4. ((((((((((Hugs))))))))) Lizzie, I am sorry you are hurting. I couldn’t listen to the song because I am on my BlackBerry and well, I just can’t but I can guess what’s wrong. Even when we know the truth in our hearts there is still that little bit of hope or whatever it is that we hold on to. When we are made to face it, hear it out loud it is ripped away like the last bit of bandaid when we rip it off the wound. The wound is almost healed but still so sensitive and it hurts like hell, sometimes it takes part of the new fresh skin with it and we have to be careful with it for a while because we can reinjure it so easily. But it is all part of the healing process. It will never hurt as bad as the initial injury but once in a while and hurt like hell again.

    I think our mind doesn’t let us feel all the pain at once because it would be too much to bare, that’s why we have these “set backs”, or periods of letting go when we grieve almost as badly as when it first happened because whether we feel it or not we are strong enough to handle it.

    I am so sorry you are hurting, I wish I could do something to make you feel better but you will you know? You will get through it and survive and you will have healed a bit more.

    Just breath and know you aren’t alone, ever.

    And btw, I think you are a really awesome person.

    • thanks Carrie – you always say the right things.. if you get a chance to listen to it some other way..you will see you hit the nail right on the head.. I never really thought of the letting go in pieces because otherwise it’s too much, it makes so much sense and also helps with that …feeling of falling back I guess.. I was crying when I posted this but it was cathartic.. and made it easier to get through for sure… funny how that works…thanks for being here… (((((hugs))))).

  5. What a beautiful way to express so much pain. I agree with Ladywithatruck, when you have to keep feeling a hurt, it seems to be overwhelming. But what you don’t realize at the time, is you’ve taken a little bit of the sting out of it every time you deal with it. So, even though it hurts really bad the next time, it’s is a little easier & will continue to get easier every time. You’re not alone, even though I’m reading this late, I’m with you all the way!

    • thanks :-) I never looked at it like that…I kinda beat myself up for slipping back to something that…I dunno..that;s silly I guess…for a part of your life gone..changed how are you supposed to just get over it…the problem I guess is it hits me fast and hard and can leave just as easily… it hurts as much but I can let it go again much easier… this one was tough….and late or not..thanks for being here (never late..just like never alone :-) )

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